SHir's spot　感谢主恩

 

these days, i wanna get away from topics about relationships.  i have heard too much and i honestly felt very confused.  'cause i couldn't find Lord's voice.  there are some decisions that is so different from just getting an instant noodles.  there are decisions that once u made it, u can't change it, once u made the wrong decision, that is it.  u have to stick with it and just spend the rest of your life to make up ur mistake.  to make it better.  i honestly not ready to make a decision like that.  i didn't know why i thought i was ready, but... no, i m not.  not physically, mentally, and most importantly, i m not ready spiritually. 

 

I wanna hear from Lord, i care and i want to know what He has to say, i want to know hear His plan and guidance for me.  But there are just too many voices out there that confuses me.  too many brands and flavors that made me feel lost.  but Lord, i don't care about other voices, i just care about Yours.  I want to concentrate on my devotion, my relationship with God, and just listen to His Words for me.  So i would know which way to go, so i would know what to do next, so i would know what to say when others question me.  Lord, i am waiting for You, i would like to hear from You. 

today, school, home, Canaan, thats it. 

Allrite, friends!  Please, thank you for caring, but sometimes, get to know when is enough.  don't push me ppl, dont' try to convince me ppl, please!  stop it!  the more u guys push me, u r not helping us, u are just pushing me even further away!!!!  u guys are scaring me, i am just keep walking away from all of you even though you wanted to do something nice.  thanks!  but no thank you!  dont' worry about me, i know what i m doing, i have very clear minds rite now, i may not have the best decision, but i know what i am doing exactly. 

 

if u guys still wanna see me in the same church, please, give me a break.  i dotn' wanna change a new church yet,.... unless....

 

Lord, i thought things too simple, way too simple that finally i realize so many truth.  too many that i couldn't handle.  Lord, i feel so dumb that i weren't be able to realize was really going on.  but Lord, i won't change to fit into the world, i will just stay simple, 'cause i enjoy my simple small world.  not selfish, i am still in contact with the outside world, but just not involved as much.  Lord, thank You.  Thank You for everything.  whatever will happen in the future, thank You.